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The Marked Heroes – Chapter One

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ONE

“You’re late. Fourth time this week,” said Ms. Park, her hand rapping the surface of her desk. Her eyes were wide with annoyance; her nostrils flared. Wilted flowers twitched inside their unattractive vase. A faded petal broke from one of the plants and fell to the desk.

At least it’s not Thursday…

Yeah, well, trying to get six underage teenagers with no adult supervision out the front door in the morning – on time, for crying out loud – was a feat not even the most organized of ‘Super Moms’ could achieve, let alone a sixteen year old boy.

Surely one could imagine the chaos that ensued during such morning routines with one teen – never mind six teenagers of different ages and stages of puberty. That was a nightmare.

And that’s what Zachary Bennet dealt with on a daily basis.

Ms. Park couldn’t really blame them, but she did; the look in the woman’s eyes said it all. That glare the principal sent to the six teens was enough to make each of them squirm in their hard, wooden seats. Zach took a deep breath, steadying himself.

Time for some damage control.

“We apologize, Ms. Park,” said Zach, keeping his tone respectful. He glanced at his friends, who were wearing different levels of respect and politeness on their faces. Except one: the youngest girl was not so much polite as she was downright hostile. “We’ll do better next week, right, guys?” he asked, looking at each of them with a hint of pleading in his eyes.

Oh, yes, blessed day that it was a Friday.

There were a handful of polite replies, while there was one irritated reply. Zach gave her a stern look; her next  response wasn’t much better. He sent a nervous, apologetic smile to the principal, hoping to appease the woman.

It wasn’t effective.

Ms. Park leaned forward onto the desk, her fingers pressing together as she gazed over them. The light there was dark. Zach straightened his back and met her gaze, refusing to be intimidated.

We are more than you think we are. We are better than you say we are.

“I realize that your priorities lie… elsewhere—” Zach stiffened, his eyes narrowing a fraction. He resisted raising an irritated eyebrow. “—but this school takes pride in the accomplishments of its hard working students, who take learning seriously. Being tardy four school days out of five is undermining all of their hard work!”

“Yes, ma’am, we understand,” said Zach. The more polite we are, the faster we’ll get out of this office. His jaw clenched. “We’ll do better.”

Brielle let out a disgusted huff and slid down in her seat, her neck resting against the back of the chair. Blonde bangs blended with her short black hair, draping over her forehead and hiding her eyes from Zach.

“Not like anyone cares if we learn anything,” muttered Brielle, folding her arms with an air of defiant petulance. Zach winced and sent her another stern glance, just for show. His heart clenched at the truth. The thirteen year old dutifully ignored him.

“Only you can decide that, Miss Durante,” said Ms. Park, her tone cold. Another petal fell onto the desk. Both petals were brushed aside into a waste basket with a dismissive motion. “I suggest you put more effort into your studies, despite your current occupation and limitations. You’re dismissed. This is your last warning, understand? Do not be tardy again.”

Can this day end already?

It was not starting out well – nope, not at all.

With that, Ms. Park turned her attention away. Zach stood up, more than ready to leave. Together, the six friends left the grey office. With a fierce expression, Brielle attempted to slam the door to the principal’s office closed behind them, but Zach grabbed her arm. She glared at him as he shut the door without a sound. She jerked away, folding her arms and staring down the empty hallway. The six of them lingered there, their backpacks swung over their shoulders.

Zach looked at his friends. Each kept their heads lowered with grim reluctance on their faces. He sighed. Getting through the school day was always hard, but being late for so many days… They were going to get a lot of flak from the other students. The hours were going to ache along at a snail’s pace.

“Today’s a new day, okay?” said Zach, giving them a smile.

Brielle rolled her amber eyes, frowning. “So is tomorrow, but that doesn’t make today any better,” she said, sighing as her stance softened, the hostility easing from her body.

If tomorrow comes at all,” said Sevati with an impassive face, yet there was a twinkle in her brown eyes. She stroked the long, dark brown braid that flowed over her chest. These words gained a squeak of fright from the youngest of the group.

“N–nothing bad is going to happen, is it?” asked Jacob; his nearly black eyes were wide behind rectangle glasses. There was a chuckle and the eldest, Drake, ruffled the curly black hair of Jacob.

“Don’t you worry, Sev’s just rattling your cage.” There was a pregnant pause. “Again.”

Sevati averted her eyes, rolling them to the side. While it was faint, there was the unmistakable sign of mischief tugging at her lips. Brielle’s foul mood lifted. Jacob didn’t seem to get it, but he sighed in relief.

“We shouldn’t stay in the hallway any more,” said Hikaru, her voice soft as she glanced back and forth briefly for any straggling students or teachers. There weren’t any. “We should get to class and avoid more trouble.”

No one moved. They glanced between each other, the reluctance still in their eyes. There was a moment of silence.

Drake let out an exasperated sigh. “Fine, we better go,” he said grudgingly. “I hope something comes up today during school. I’ll take anything at this rate. I’ve got an algebra test that I’d rather skip.”

“What’re the chances we’re called out during your algebra class?” asked Sevati, giving the older boy a flat, yet pointed look.

Drake ran a hand through his spiky blond hair. The light in his hazel green eyes darkened and he said, “Zero to none.” He groaned. “Man, I hate math.”

He gave the others a dramatic wave of the hand, acting as if he were going to the gallows. He turned to walk down the hallway with Sevati following at his side. Sevati, while being a sophomore and two years below Drake, had classes in the same section of the school as the seniors. The two of them were out of sight after a minute.

“Will you two be all right?” asked Zach, looking back at the youngest of the group.

“Yeah, yeah, we’ll be fine,” said Brielle, waving a hand dismissively.

“Do you need us to walk you—”

“We’re fine, Mother Hen,” drawled Brielle, shaking her head in annoyance. She grabbed Jacob by the arm and began to pull him down the other hallway. “Come on, squirt.” The younger boy protested quietly along the way, pushing his glasses up higher on the bridge of his nose.

“Hey, I’m not a squirt.”

“Yeah, ya are.”

“I’m only a year younger than you!”

“Still a squirt.”

There were a few giggles from Hikaru, her hand covering her mouth to muffle the sounds. Zach smiled, thankful that the middle school was combined with the high school. “Stay out of trouble,” he called to them, as they turned the corner. Brielle rolled her eyes; Jacob gave a tentative smile.

It was much quieter now. Despite being around the same age and in the same grade, Hikaru had a different class schedule than Zach, leaving them with only two classes with each other.

“Well, we better get going, too,” said Hikaru, turning to walk down a third hallway. She motioned with her head, a mischievous smile lifting her lips. “I’ll be your escort, Mother Hen.”

Zach chuckled. He hefted his backpack a little higher and quickened his steps to walk alongside her. “You know I’m not a mother hen,” he said, giving her a nudge with his shoulder.

Hikaru laughed softly and brushed a hand through some of her long black hair, moving it out of her dark brown eyes. “Well, if you weren’t, we’d never get to school on time.”

“I’m not doing a very good job, then, am I? Seeing as we were late—” Zach drew his voice up as high as he could and imitated the principal. “—four times this week.”

Hikaru laughed again, the light touch of her Japanese accent barely lilting her voice. She shook her head and gave him a playful, stern look.

“Be more serious about this.”

“About what? School?”

“Yes, that,” said Hikaru, returning his nudge with a light one of her own. “You do need to be more serious about school. It’s important for our futures.”

Zach’s mood lessened and his steps halted. Hikaru stopped as well, turning around to face him. It took him a moment to collect his thoughts and she didn’t say anything as she waited.

“Is it really?” asked Zach, his voice low. He shook his head. “I just don’t see how. Now—” He put up a hand for emphasis. “—I’m not discounting it; we should have schooling, but we’re not going to have a better chance in life just because we have an education. They’ve made that more than clear to us on multiple occasions. They’ve done all they can to ostracize us. So, why bother with the system? Nothing we do will change what we are nor will it change how they see us.”

Hikaru gave him a pensive expression, her dark eyes losing some of the sparkle always held there. After a moment, she answered, her voice low and gentle, “It is better to be prepared and the opportunity never come, than it is to be ill prepared and miss the opportunity of a lifetime.”

Zach sighed and ran a hand through his bright auburn hair. His mouth lifted somewhat in a tired smile. “Did you get that out of a book?” he asked, raising an eyebrow. “That sounded way too philosophical – had to be from a book.”

There was a soft laugh. “No, I made it up myself,” Hikaru said, smiling wryly. Her expression grew serious, the amusement fading from her soft gaze. “But really, Zach, there’s always a chance things will get better. The world can’t stay cruel forever.”

“If you say so.”

“I do say so.”

He snorted and the two resumed walking. In a few moments, they reached their classrooms, which were next to each other this period. Zach didn’t feel prepared for the separation.

Things changing for the better? Zach wasn’t naturally a pessimist, but when the government itself was entrenched with cruel policies that locked their futures for its own designs and purposes – well, he wasn’t about to hold his breath.

Change could take decades.

“Pay attention in class,” said Hikaru, her hand on the handle, her dark brown eyes alight with her smile.

“Yes, Mother,” drawled Zach.

“Oh, but I’m not the mother, you are,” retorted Hikaru, playfully pointing a finger at him. She gave him a wink and a last smile, before she entered her classroom.

Zach’s face fell. He wished they had more time together during school. The emptiness permeated the air. He glanced down at the floor, his lips thinning. It would’ve been better if they had home instruction, but that was against regulation. Of course, it was. After all, the government wasn’t going to spend extra money on a bunch of dangerous orphans.

United, they could withstand the whisperers.

Divided, they were weak and isolated.

With a tired sigh, Zach straightened. He took a deep breath and mentally prepared himself. He stepped forward, turned the door handle, and entered his classroom.

“Mr. Bennet, so nice of you to join us,” said the teacher. She folded her arms, her eyebrows furrowing in displeasure. “What’s your excuse today?”

Zach swallowed. His classmates snickered, their eyes flickering over at him with little subtlety in their expressions.

“I don’t have one,” whispered Zach, his eyes dropping to the ground. The whispers grew louder, comments blending with each insulting slur. “We’ve been to Ms. Park’s office already.”

“Education is a privilege, not a right,” said the teacher; her displeased look turned into a resentful glare. “Coming late is disrespectful to all your teachers and your classmates. You waste our time. You should be thankful you have this opportunity to learn. Many would give up everything to have this chance.”

Zach’s face burned. The snickers grew louder. The whisperers stared at him with their unfeeling eyes. He held his breath, counting to ten in his head. He let it out, his body releasing the tension.

Privilege, not a right? So, it was a privilege to know how to read? Was she dare suggesting that not everyone should have that privilege?

She was wrong.

Opportunity? Just what opportunity was this woman alluding to? They would never be allowed to go to college. They would never be allowed to choose a career that they wanted. They would never be allowed to step out of the box that the government had shoved them into.

Who are you kidding? We’re only here so we don’t embarrass the government with illiteracy.

“I’m sorry, we’ll do better,” whispered Zach. His jaw clenched.

No, just bear it. Breathe. Relax. Ignore them.

“Sit down,” said the teacher sharply. She didn’t wait for him, instead resuming her lecture as if he weren’t there. Zach turned. The distance seemed to expand, appearing further away than ever. Eyes stared at him. Smirks and sneers blended with race, color, and gender. Zach focused on a mark on the wall and stepped towards the back. His mind tricked him and, for a moment, it felt as if he would never reach his seat. It only lasted for twenty seconds. He sat down in the corner on the back row. He let out a breath of relief.

He ignored the incessant whisperers.

Zach half listened to his teacher. He waited, before discreetly opening his backpack and pulling out a small washcloth. Within the confines of the bag, he wet the cloth with his water bottle, twisting the lid back on afterwards. As class time passed, he quietly scrubbed the black marker from the surface of his desk. Eyes flickered back at him, the snickers never ending.

His attention waned from the lesson. He wasn’t called out, thankfully. Giving the reason wouldn’t have gained him any sympathy, anyway. Scrubbing his desk didn’t do much – water did little good against permanent marker – but at least the slurs and images were smudged beyond initial recognition.

The black lines were still branded inside his mind, however.

It wasn’t even lunchtime when a voice rang through the school, the sounds shrill and cold over the intercom, “Mr. Bennet, please report to the principal’s office immediately.”

Zach slowly closed his eyes, groaning softly. Really? Really?? He slid downward in his seat, wanting nothing more than to vanish from sight. Those snickers and whispers inflated once again, faces glancing back at him, the unified, blatant question ghostly written on their countenances with defiling black ink. ‘What had he done?’

Zach’s thought was different, however: Who did what now?

Keep reading –>

 

Author’s Notes:  Next update will be on Tuesday, Sept 24th!

I’ve spent a long time waiting on this story. I’ve had lots of people ask me about it and I finally decided to reveal it on a weekly posting schedule. For those of you who are aware of its origins, let me tell you: you are in for a bumpy ride. Hehe.

Can’t wait for the next chapter? Then, consider checking out my Patreon for extra content. Want something bigger to sink your teeth into? Then, consider checking out my other work, Beyond the Alluring Sky.

Thanks for reading! See ya next time! Comments/reviews = much love!  ^.^

Anthy

How to Break Through Writer’s Block – (Hint: I have NO fricking idea)

The title says all: I have no idea how to break through writer’s block.

End post.

Okay, not really. It’s not the end of the post, but I still have no idea how to break through my own block. In fact, I am forcing myself to post this. That same stupid, blasted crippling fear – weird as it is – is still there, begging me to go MIA again, and I’m about ready to punt it all the way to Timbuktu. (Fun fact: I had no idea how to spell that. Google was kind enough to understand Tim Buck Two)

Writer’s Block. Creative Frustration.

It sucks.

There’s honestly no other way to describe that. It does. I hate it. And because I have never really struggled with it so much, I’m not properly equipped to combat it. Lately, my block was I didn’t feel like writing. I didn’t want to write. Now I want it, but there’s a ten foot blockade in my mind.

Grrrr

Let me tell ya about my futile attempts yesterday to scale that darn wall.

  • Screamed in frustration – didn’t work, but it made me mad happy
  • Paced
  • Caffeine – in pill format
  • Got pissed off
  • Screamed some more – both puppers got really excited
  • Played tug a war with said puppers
  • Took some vitamins
  • Opened the blinds
  • Played rock music at maximum volume
  • Bought a new music CD
  • Ate food
  • Took multiple breaks
  • Exercised
  • Had 8 drops of 3 different Bach Flowers

Nothing. Worked. I was going OUT OF MY MIND yesterday. I kept slamming my head against that wall in my head, determined to break through. I ended up writing 300 words. 300 stupid, teeth pulling words. And 200 of those words happened at 8pm, after spending the entire day (12 blasted hours) trying to write.

By the end of the day, I was emotionally drained from my efforts. I just wanted to write. I wanted it so much, but nothing would come. Why did it have to be so difficult? For crying out loud, it was just writing!

I don’t know why. Today. Tomorrow, I might know.

Today, I’ve had some green tea. –thumbs up-

In the past, I didn’t experience this because I would write all over the place. One chapter not working? Screw that, bounce to another chapter. Maybe that’s my problem now. I don’t have much space to bounce around in with Beyond 2. In reality, it’s almost done. 10,000 words left, is all. On good days, I could have that done in 3 to 2 days – I’m not kidding. So, I look back in the past and wish I could be that again. Where are those days of being able to write 4,000 to 6,000 words?

They gone. I hope with all my heart that they’re not gone forever. But yesterday wasn’t a 4k word day.

Do you, dear reader, experience this, too? Do you have creative blocks that you want to tear down? I know they happen in all aspects of art and work. I know sometimes you sit in front of your creative medium and wonder why nothing is coming. Perhaps you’re like me and are wondering what happened to your strong creativity in the past.

Breathe.

Take a deep breath.

I’m sure I could whip out a list and read a bunch of crap that may or may not work for you. I read all the lists yesterday. All of em. In the end, only YOU know what is blocking your creativity. My only advice to help it along is to breathe, be calm, and keep trying. Getting pissed off didn’t do much for me yesterday. It just made me tired. I wouldn’t really advise it.

Today is a new day.

Tomorrow is a new day.

It will pass.

Anthy

Fear

Oh, look, it’s been ten months since I last posted.

Whoops.

I always do this to myself. I did it again. The very thing I said that I wouldn’t do, I DID. I said that I would just be myself. SCREW IT ALL, I said. And yet, I looked at my post and felt that I had started a theme/trend, one that I had to continue or ELSE.

Else what?

Beats me.

I guess I could throw out some other excuses. After all, I did clear out a borderline hoarder house, filling 8 dumpsters over the course of 6 to 8 months. (16 tons worth of crap. I’m legit not exaggerating here.). Then, I moved from NJ to Utah. Yay me.

-passes out-

Good grief, I always bury my head in the sand. My dear reader, do you do this to yourself, too? Surely, I’m not the only one. It’s taken me awhile to figure it out what’s going on with myself. I think I uncovered a tiny clue for myself.

Fear.

I honestly didn’t think I had it. I wasn’t afraid of much in life. Except losing my Mom. Oh, look. Been there, done that.

I FEAR NOTHING.

Joking aside, it’s true in many ways. I’m not afraid of the usual things anymore. I refuse, to be honest. I’ve been there once; I will not let myself be there again. But I have had fearful moments, like Zelda or Luna (new pup) getting loose and not obeying me. But I don’t live in fear.

Or, at least, I thought.

But when I can’t seem to function or when the highlight of my day is simply doing a load of dishes, it’s hard to be something. I worry that if I post something online I won’t be able to keep up a momentum. Like my FF readers… They’re still waiting on chapters for stories. Beyond 2 still isn’t done and yet I have anxious readers who want more. I have a number of readers who have expressed interest in my other series, the one that has been evolved from my TT fanfiction, Warped Identity.

And yet, here I am with nothing in my hands. I have nothing.

I feel like I have to be complete before I show my face. Maybe it’s like a makeup thing. For many women, they won’t leave the house without it. If I’m not completely together, then why try? (I can’t be bothered with makeup, so I rarely use it anyway – but you get my point.)

And in the end, this feeling rooted a hidden fear in me – one I had no idea existed. How could that happen? How could I let that happen to myself? I think that when we’re all coping with our own issues, it’s easy to let hidden fears become rooted in our hearts.

What fears are weighing you down? Maybe you haven’t noticed them, like I hadn’t. I hope you can find them and pull them out, one by one.

Too bad there isn’t a weed killer for the heart.

Anthy

Let’s Talk about Advice – (Hint: there’s too much of it)

So, let’s talk, my dear reader.

I am a published author. I thought of an idea. I wrote the idea down. I wrote words. I deleted those words and replaced them with words that made sense. I added words in between those words. I saved – A LOT. I read my words. A lot, a lot. I read my words again. And AGAIN. I listened to a British fake voice who read my words out loud to me. (Much love to you, Peter. – thumps chest with her fist-)

And that was just the first draft!

Kidding. I think it’s safe to say that I’m a writer. I’m an artist. A lot of work goes into creating something like a book – especially when you do everything yourself. But the focus of this introduction post isn’t about my first book and why you should read it – go buy my book – no, I want to talk about all the advice, research, and information I’ve gathered over the years about self publishing.

-soft sob-

So much advice…

ADVICE DUMP!

Write lots of books. Write an endless series. Don’t write outside your genre. Write short books. Write long books. Get a mailing list. Get a website. Get a youtube. Get a blog. Don’t get a blog. Have a web presence without the spiders. How to sell books without sounding like a sleazy salesman. Go buy my book. Earn 3k in a month. In a week. IN A DAY. How to sell your soul without sounding like a desperate devil. Someone save this poor confused shnook. How to be professional. You need something of value: give something away, like your first born child or your paperclip. You only need one book to be successful. You only need five trillion, six hundred and seventy-two billion, three hundred and twenty-four million, eight hundred and ninety-nine thousand, and one books to be successful.

“Like me!” says some random dude. “If I can write that absurd amount of books in three days, then SO CAN YOU! Just get my training videos! And if you buy within this superficial deadline that I made up for no reason, then you get the VIP price of $895! But act now, before it goes back to $900! This special offer that is not really special at all since I cycle through it four times a year isn’t going to last long!”

-sighs deeply-

As a new published author, I want to be successful, of course. I want readers to find my work and enjoy what I’ve created. I think any artist, whatever medium they use, want others to get enjoyment out of what they’ve created – like an innocent child showing a parent their drawing. Finding my readers or readers finding me – I figure there’s a process to that and the more I put off doing certain things, then the longer they can’t see my work.

But GOOD GRIEF, how 2 dew all dat. I can’t even. Wut?

I don’t know. All that advice is downright scary! And so confusing. Where to start? How to start? I’m the type to get overwhelmed pretty quickly. I can’t process all that nonsense.  I can barely write the blasted book! My poor Fanfiction readers know this! (Hi, guys! -waves-) I want to do all that. I want to be all that.

But trying to be perfect and professional… That seemed to put the brakes on my website. I buried my head in the sand and ended up doing nothing at all. I didn’t work on this website for months because I felt paralyzed. I had to do it ALL before it was of any value whatsoever.

Well, that’s no good either! I feel like to start a blog, an author website, I have to have this fancy professional web presence that’s all smiles and cookie cutter expressions. My original idea for a website was more professional with tutorials on writing because I had to ‘offer something of substance’ for people to stick around.

But…

SCREW IT ALL!

I have a beautiful picture. It will be replaced with a far more derpiful (yes, new word) one. Probably me in PJs.

I am done trying to hide my imperfections, like I’m sure EVERYONE does on social media. But no matter how much I wish it, I am not a perfect specimen. If I have to live with it, then so do you! I’m not going to aim to be a high and mighty professional here. I don’t even know what it is anymore. It’s constantly changing.

I can promise that I’m gonna be real – real sarcastic and cynical, too.

I don’t have a free book to give you if you sign up for my mailing list. Hopefully someday. I don’t have any tutorials on here. Maybe someday. BUT! I think you should subscribe anyway. Why? Because I’m gonna be real. I have some real stupid awesome stuff to say. And I have some real serious deep stuff to say, too.

I write fantasy. I write fanfiction. I write supernatural. I write romance. I write me.

Hopefully, you’ll enjoy getting to know to me. Or in the very least get a good chuckle out of your day.

Anthy